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I am now a 36 year old widow. Not sure how much things can change or how much they can change but let me tell you it can happen in the blink of an eye. The rug has been pulled from under me and I am struggling to pick myself and my kids up. I feel like sometimes, we have to be ready for when our plans and God's plans change what we think is going to happen. I am hopeful that our family's future includes Mark, my beloved husband, as much as we can.


Chris is 12! Brooklyn is 7! Preston is 6! and Kyler is 2!

Monday, April 4, 2011

I am horrible!

It has been too long since I wrote in my blog!  So much is going on and things have changed.  Some for the better, some for the worse.  Well I started seeing someone new in December, he is a really great person.  Not perfect but who is?  We spend a lot of time together and love each other.  Well I am happy to say we are expecting a baby in yet again September.  It has been a stressful pregnancy to say the least.  The kids and I got into a major car accident in February and I had some internal bleeding and was worried I would lose the baby.  I have been home from work since then, I find myself having a lot of anxiety about going back to work for some reason?  Anyway enough of that for now.  A few pictures...

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

I forgot also

Even though it is out of order I forgot to post about Christopher's baptism!  It was the first Saturday of October and I totally spaced posting.  It was really nice, just him and another girl from our ward.  We then went as a family to chuck a rama for lunch it was an awesome day!  Congrats to Chris for making such an awesome decision!  I love you and I know your dad and I am so very proud of you!


Goodness I had

I had changed the blog to Halloween and never even put up pictures!  Shame on me.  I admit I haven't done much with the camera lately but I am trying.  Here are a few of the kids, I had to work and Preston and Brooklyn ended up being up sick all night.  It was a good start to Halloween ending off with the tummy bug, yucky!

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Why now?

I really feel like I don't know what to do with myself anymore.  If I didn't have kids it would be really easy to curl up into a ball and cry all day long, but I can't do that.  Things are going as well as they can I suppose.  I have had to make a lot of decisions and sometimes I wonder or wish rather that I knew which choice to make and what will happen.  BUT I do realize now more than ever that things do happen for a reason, and some we may not know.  But I do know that there is a plan and there is more than this here!  Our plans and lives have changed and sometimes we have to be ready for gods plans, they are not always the same as ours.  And there is no such thing as an unanswered prayer, sometimes the answer is no, or not right now.  And if you ask why you might not know that answer until it is our time.  I miss Mark, my heart aches, my nerves are shot, my kids fight and aggravate me, but we are doing it and making it work because life goes on.  The day Mark died I went to bed thinking how is it possible that the sun is going to come up tomorrow, how do we go on?  The answer is rely on the Lord and put our faith with him.  The fact that life goes on for us is  a bittersweet reminder.  I feel like 9 years married just wasn't enough.  I wanted more time, I wanted my kids to have their father here for their weddings and graduations.  I am sure he will be watching over us but somehow that is not always comforting.  I hope my rambling makes some sense I am just trying to work through this and hopefully come out in one piece.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Is Heaven in the yellow pages?

Is Heaven in the Yellow Pages?
Daddy went to Heaven, but I need him here today,
My tummy hurts and I fell down, I need him right away.
Operator can you tell me how to find him in this book?
Is Heaven in the yellow part, I don't know where to look.
I think my mommy needs him too, at night I hear her cry.
I hear her call him name sometimes, but I really don't know why.
Maybe if I call him, he will hurry home to me.
Is Heaven very far away, is it across the sea?
He's been gone a long, long time. he really needs to come home now!
I really need to reach him, but I simply don't know how.
Help me find the number please, Is it listed under Heaven?
I can't read these big words, I am only eight.
I'm sorry operator, I didn't mean to make you cry.
Is your tummy hurting too, or is there something in your eye?
If I call my church maybe they will know.
Mommy said when we need help that's where we should go.
I found the number to my church tacked up on the wall.
Thank you operator, I'll give them a call.

by Donna Groleau

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